Not All Who Wander Are Lost

southerndecay: Despite my delusions of wanting a relationship,...

Sun, 19 May 2013 14:29:12 -0400

Despite my delusions of wanting a relationship, I don’t think I am cut out for them. My track record, excepting the years with J, is a history of running as soon as things got rough, as soon as ideas were getting serious.

I’ve done it again.

He told me he loved me.
He asked me, “What means more to you, your personal life or your career?”

“My career.”

“That’s it for us then.”

“Okay.”

Things with the most recent gentleman have fizzled due to my inability to invest much in a relationship besides monogamy. Perhaps it is an abhorrently selfish trait of mine, stubbornness along with a complete inability to be anything but unapologetically myself - I won’t bend, mold, or compromise. I can’t commit to anything long term if it takes away from what I have been working toward my entire life.

I think I have become one that prefers short affairs that end in perfectly content moments before each party returns to their lives. There’s a grace to this kind of relationship, and for me, I believe it to be healthier.

Maybe I’m wrong, ignorant, or naive.

This weekend I met a friend who was in New York for only a few days, and in that time, we spent nearly thirty-six hours joined at the hip. When it came time for him to board his flight, he kissed me good bye, and let me go. He returns to New York in a few months, perhaps I’ll see him again, but perhaps I won’t. Whether or not I see him again doesn’t really matter because we had an amazing weekend. A life should be filled with glimpses of treasures more often, and these precious experiences need to be left where they were hidden. There’s no need to unearth them, drag them out, soil, and ruin them. I’d rather keep them neat, clean, and tucked away.

When your love is safe, I’ll be giving it all away.

warcrimenancydrew: library-worms: I want to be feminine and pretty and adored but I also want to...

Thu, 09 May 2013 12:19:37 -0400

warcrimenancydrew:

library-worms:

I want to be feminine and pretty and adored but I also want to strike fear into the hearts of everyone and wear tuxedos.

this is seriously the most “story of my life” post i’ve ever seen.

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"It doesn’t make sense to call ourselves ugly, because we don’t really see ourselves. We don’t watch..."

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 17:02:34 -0400

“It doesn’t make sense to call ourselves ugly, because we don’t really see ourselves. We don’t watch ourselves sleeping in bed, curled up and silent with chests rising and falling with our own rhythm. We don’t see ourselves reading a book, eyes fluttering and glowing. You don’t see yourself looking at someone with love and care inside your heart. There’s no mirror in your way when you’re laughing and smiling and happiness is leaking out of you. You would know exactly how bright and beautiful you are if you saw yourself in the moments where you are truly yourself.”

- dirty wings (via thatsgoldjerry)

I needed this

(via allthefucks-idontgive)

"I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself."

Sat, 27 Apr 2013 16:14:40 -0400

“I am a lover without a lover. I am lovely and lonely and I belong deeply to myself.”

- Warsan Shire (via aplethoraofquotations)

parisjemm: a relationship is like a house if a lightbulb goes out, you don’t buy a new house, you...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:58:59 -0400

parisjemm:

a relationship is like a house

if a lightbulb goes out, you don’t buy a new house, you just change the lightbulb.

unless that house is a lying whore

then you burn the fucker to the ground and buy a better house with lights that you can fucking count on.

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the-absolute-funniest-posts: thegirlwiththeequalistglove: I...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 14:48:00 -0400

the-absolute-funniest-posts:

thegirlwiththeequalistglove:

I will always, always, reblog this. It never ceases to make me laugh

This post has been featured on a 1000notes.com blog.

naturalbornliar: “Ladies do not start fights, but they can...

Fri, 12 Apr 2013 11:38:35 -0400

naturalbornliar:

“Ladies do not start fights, but they can finish them.”

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"Among life’s cruelest truths is this one: Wonderful things are especially wonderful the first time..."

Tue, 22 Jan 2013 20:56:52 -0500

“Among life’s cruelest truths is this one: Wonderful things are especially wonderful the first time they happen, but their wonderfulness wanes with repetition.”

- Stumbling on happiness; Daniel Gilbert

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